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Enraged on >> 24 March 2006 || 9:04 pm

Sometimes in life you can't always get what you want... I'm fcking scared of the HSC;
I want to be a doctor,
I want to be a surgeon,
I want to do medicine.
But I know my capabilities and I know that the 99.95 is NOT within my grasp.

Not long ago, (yesterday) I bumped into Gerii. We spoke about the future. She asked me why I wanted to do medicine, at that point I didn't know how to answer her.

I thought ...
was it because my parents have always wanted me to be a doctor? A respectable occupation, something else for them to boast about?
was it because a doctor is a high ranking profession?
was it because I was influenced by those tvb soapies?

I eventually formulated an answer (5 hours later at home);
I want a job that will be challenging,
I want a job which will be interesting,
I want a job which will give me security, so that I won't have to rely on my parents or a husband in order to survive,
I want a job which my parents will be happy for me, and not worry over me,
for how much they have already sacarficed in order for me to be where I am today.

But I won't make it. The hopes and dreams of my parents and I will be destroyed, though I'm preparing myself now.

that's all folks.
xx

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