One more to go.
Enraged on >> 08 June 2006 || 5:11 pm

Cringed.
Cringe.
Cringing.

Yesterday I received my UAI estimate and today it seems as though even that is unreachable, and no I will not post up the mark here, ask me if you're really desperate to know. Such disappointment.

It occurred to me today, 2hours ago to be precise -that I totally stuffed up 4u mathematics- by that I mean, I lost 13marks already. This also means, my 4u will scale my fckn UAI down.

This is the first time since I've dropped chemistry that I'm doubting my choice- not because of chemistry but because of performance in other subjects. I wish I had that extra 2units to fall back onto, and now it is too late.

Everytime after a 4u test, I say I will do better next time. It never works, and now there is one more till our rankings are finalised. I'm scared that it'd pull my mark down even lowered.

I wish I tried harder.
I wish I slept earlier that night.
I wish I wasn't so stressed during the exam.
I wish somehow a miracle will happen.
I wish I had chemistry to fall back onto.
I wish I wasn't stupid.

The other exams were mediocre, so I won't complain.

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On a somewhat lighter note, Nic came over again and we watched Davinci Code. However, it was disappointing, very disappointing. Tom Hanks' was in such a horrid state (eg. his friggin haircut), it became hard to even look at him and was it just our version of the movie or do they talk in french in like half the movie? Because I couldn't friggin work out the subtitles!!

xx
that is all.
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